the line of communication between mason and i is now officially open again. we are friends, and i made is perfectly clear that i dont want anything more, from anyone. (side note: that super romantic dude that doesnt like to answer his phone got kicked to the curb today, i told him that i am dunzo) anyway...as i was saying. i figure that if i cut mason off and completely disregard everything we once had i am being joel. and i say screw that notion.
i will never hurt someone the way he hurt me.
but here is the catch 22 with me being friends with mason. he decided to tell me today that he still has feelings for me.
whyyyyyy?!?!
ya' apparently didnt have any when you gave away the present i bought you, didnt call me on my birthday, and just completely ignored my feelings on important matters!
breathe...
i told him again that i definitely do not want a relationship with anyone for a long time. he came back with he doesnt either and he is focusing on work. then proceeded to tell me that its going to be hard being my friend because he still has feelings.
i then explain to him why we didnt work, because we were both broken and couldnt make a whole. he concurred and said that he wants to be friends so that when we both are fixed in our own ways then we can be together.
make up your mind, damnit!
the most logical thing would be to not talk to him again.
my sentimental heart couldnt bear that though.
i put others before me still.
damn.
i still need to work on that.
what a valentine's day i have had.
peace,
b.
